You Brought Me Here Why? {Anchored Souls Series}

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Today we welcome my sweet friend Bethany McIlrath to the blog. Bethany’s heart to seek the Lord in the midst of life’s struggles shines through her writing. She encourages me to look for his hand at work even when his plans are different from mine, and to keep trusting in the middle of chaos and heartache. Please give her a warm welcome today as she shares a story I know will inspire your heart.

You Brought Me Here Why?

I remember the excitement when the phone call came. “We just have to finalize it, but you can schedule that moving truck,” the Midwestern man’s voice exclaimed. Expectantly, we did.

We waited.

But the paperwork never arrived. Weeks later, the same voice apologized on the phone. Unforeseen circumstances arose. The position was cancelled. We’re weren’t moving to Iowa. We were moving though… we had to.

We waited.

Living out of suitcases at my in-laws’ house, we sought work.

We waited.

My husband showed me a job listing. It wasn’t what was expected. We knew one person in the whole region. But the Lord said yes with perfect clarity and abundant confirmation. One Skype interview and a phone offer later, we were scheduling another moving truck. This one was bound for the unknown of Minnesota.

With just two weeks to prepare and little in the bank, we signed a lease online with high hopes.

We’d waited.

The Lord had made the way. We believed it.

Then we pulled up to the apartment complex.

Singing paperwork, we discovered they changed the lease from what we original signed. Shrugging, the woman said “well, yes, it’s more expensive than you agreed to. But you just moved across the country. What can you do?” The deceit stung.

Our lease was cancelled. Tired of waiting, my prayer was “Lord, you brought us here. Why??”

In a new state, 24 hours distant from home, we drove to a storage unit. My in-laws helped us move all our stuff into a 6 foot cement hole. On that October day, the first snowfall drifted down. We stayed with a friend for a whole homeless week, searching frantically.

We waited.

The Lord provided a place to live within a chaotic week. But not a good job for me. We waited through church challenges, friendlessness, and open opposition at my part time job.

My prayer?

“Lord you brought us here. Why?”

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I wasn’t ungrateful. I’ve lived much worse.

But never had the Lord so clearly made a way where there was no way, only to bring me to something I couldn’t make sense of.

Exodus became more personal to me. We’d just left a harder chapter of life. We’d just faced promise after promise of newness, waiting until the Lord said “go.” He parted some unbelievable waters for us and led us through on dry land.

When we arrived, the land stayed metaphorically dry and literally frozen. Life felt parched and biting.

I spent much of my time grumbling like the Israelites in the desert: “now you have brought us into this wilderness to starve us all to death” (Exodus 16:3.)

God, in fact, had different purposes.

Since our Minnesota wilderness waiting season, the Lord has reminded me of the “whys” I was too discontent to notice then.

It was in our waiting we learned firsthand about how God gives peace when our circumstances are intimidating. We’ll never forget how He parted the way and the assurance we had, even as I grumbled, that He was with us and leading us.

We learned an awful lot about prayer. Our marriage grew immensely while knowing no one but each other. We met amazing people.

While in Minnesota, we were blessed by the Lord’s provision through miraculous financing, too-coincidental of timing, unexpected gifts, and even the car we are driving today. My husband and I had time with his best friend we never would have if we didn’t live close.

I also learned about the blessing of loneliness. I learned what it is to wake up to mundane circumstances and immediately turn to the Lord. It was in Minnesota God taught me to write my first manuscript and challenged me to read His whole Word for the first time.

It was there I began to make memories with the Lord. It was there I learned the sound of His voice.

I still pray that prayer though- just a little revised.

“Lord, you brought us here. You know why.”

I pray it even when our circumstances seem settled.

Because I know while we’re waiting on God, He’s always both bringing us out and drawing us in.


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A grateful recipient of salvation and hope in Christ, Bethany McIlrath can’t keep from writing His praise. She loves joining with others ii testifying about the Lord. Her reflections on God’s Word and character can be found at First and Second Blog and on Twitter or Facebook.

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19 thoughts on “You Brought Me Here Why? {Anchored Souls Series}

  1. It is good to hear how your faith sustained you…i wish to ask how you heard God speak to you, especially with perfect clarity and affirmation?I struggle in hearing from Him. Blessings on your journey

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    • Hi Marianne! I could say SO much about how God speaks. Sometimes by stirring up ideas separately for my husband and I, and when we eventually share them with each other, we’re surprised to learn we’ve been sensing the same thing. Often when I pray I know the Lord is speaking when the same message comes up from unrelated sources, like when I ask the Lord something and then in regular Bible reading find an answer, only to have someone who doesn’t know a thing about my pray echo the same message, wise counsel agrees, and I can’t seem to get away from the message in many places, etc. Or when circumstances that seem impossible open up and there is a way! Most importantly, if what I believe the Spirit is moving in my heart is aligned with His Word, I address any emotions I have about the matter and then in praying rely on whether or not I have peace this is the Lord’s will. Okay, that was long. I could keep going. Feel free to shoot me a message here (https://firstandsecondblog.wordpress.com/connect/) if you want to discuss more 🙂 Praying the Lord works in your heart with clarity! Thanks for sharing, asking, and seeking Him with me!

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      • I agree. God speaks in do many ways. I have learned to follow His peace, and when it is unclear be vulnerable with Christians you trust. Often, they have a different perspective that brings clarity. Keep pursuing Christ,and He will show up.

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  2. Bethany,
    I love your heart ❤ It really is in the difficult stages of life that we grow. It has to be more intentional in the good times, but happens naturally "in the desert". Thanks for sharing that honest, personal truth with us all 🙂
    ~Sherry Stahl
    xoxo

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  3. I love those three words: “Lord, You know . . .”
    They have saved me many times, but they come hard when I find myself wanting to know, too!
    God has been leading you all along, Bethany. And now the story continues!

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  4. Bethany!!! I love this so very much! I have a feeling you and I could have a very long conversation about this whole topic, complete with a moving-to-the-Promised-Land-that-turned-into-a-desert story of my own. 🙂 I love how God has shown you fruit from that hard time … fruit that surely has strengthened your faith for your current season of waiting. Beautiful post. (And thanks to Abby for having you here today!)

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    • Thanks, Lois! I look forward to the day we get to have that long conversation! I know you have many stories like this one too- grateful for the wisdom you share from them!

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  5. “It was there I learned the sound of His voice.” This moves me deep within with the joy of gratefulness and an almost tearful praise because, in His love for you (for us), He knows that intimacy with Him is the absolute best thing that could happen to you (us), and He provides the circumstances needed to give us that wonderful gift.
    Thank you, Jesus! 🙂

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  6. Great post! I think it’s often only as we look back on difficult times that we see how God was working good in them, but remembering those times can give us confidence in future seasons of waiting or difficulty to know that God does know what he’s doing.

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  7. So great to see you here at Abby’s, Bethany. What a beautiful testimony of God’s faithfulness and the lessons your learned even when the circumstances weren’t what you hoped for. I know I’ve asked a lot of those “why this?” questions in my life, and it’s such a gift to be able to look back and see that, although I didn’t always get the answer, I gained knowledge of and closeness with my Savior – which is a far more precious gift. Blessings to you – and much love to you too, sweet Abby (and Elise!!!!).

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  8. Bethany, it’s great to see you here. Your words encourage me today, especially this: “God gives peace when our circumstances are intimidating.” So reassuring to remember this.

    Abby, may the Lord bless and surround you during this first few weeks with your little one.

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