I spent the better part of my twenties running from God. I ran for so long I forgot what rest was. Solace disillusioned me, although I thought I was finding it in the arms of men, substance abuse, and lies.
But I always came home empty. I never found what I was looking for, though God knows I searched in every place I knew to look. Except in him.
When my husband and I got married, I knew it was time for a change. But I was ashamed to bring myself before my Creator, the One I’d run from for so long. How could he possibly welcome me the way I was?
I tried to clean myself up, to be presentable before the holy of holies. I straightened my walk, my mouth, my gait. I quit hurting myself with the things I knew where not of Him.
It was never enough. I was still stained. So undeniably marred and ugly.
In the midst of my depression and my utter loathing for myself, I slowly sensed his invitation. It become loader and clearer: Come. Come to me, child. You are welcome here.
In a word that says, “Do,” Jesus simply says, “Come.”
At first I resisted, afraid that I would disappoint Him or shame Him. But the pull was too great. I could not deny it any longer.
My birthday came and I knew it was time.
“I’m yours, Lord. I accept what you did for me.”
I knew there was nothing left to be done. The Spirit who would do the rest.
And the angels in Heaven rejoiced.
*Linking up with the lovelies at Five Minute Friday: Five minutes of free writing on one word. Today’s word was: welcome. Come join us.
Good Word Abby! Excellent way to capture the word “welcome”. I have been down a little too and I thank God He wants me to come into His Presence. There is no better place.
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It’s so good to see your face again, Jodie! I’m praying for you today, friend. I know God has wonderful things in store for you this year.
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Thanks yeah I have been a little MIA lately, due to too much focus on self. Haha but hoping to get back to doing life with everyone else again soon.
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This is such a beautiful picture of grace! Visiting from the FMF link-up. 🙂
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Thank you so much for visiting, Marie! Always happy to make a new connection. Have a great weekend.
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“It was never enough. I was still stained. So undeniably marred and ugly.” How many of us can relate with these very sentiments? I am so thankful that Jesus tells us to come to Him, anytime, anywhere, no matter what our current circumstances are at the moment. Thank you for sharing. (Visiting from FMF)
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Me too, me too. So grateful for his grace. Thanks for visiting.
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I understand your testimony. Very similar to mine.
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Isn’t God’s grace simply amazing? I’m glad you came to him just the way you were, Lisa. Hope you have a great weekend.
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Abby,
It’s amazing how in five minutes you can so beautifully sum up Jesus’ whole message to us. Regardless of the mess we’re in, He bids us come…not as a shamed child, but as His precious child who is dearly loved and cherished. Love your words and your story!
Blessings and ((hugs)),
Bev
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Amen, Bev. His grace is more than I could ask for or fathom. Thank you for your words today, friend. (hugs)
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What a wonderful way to reflect on the word welcome. Makes me think of the new song by David Crowder.
Come out of sadness
From wherever you’ve been
Come broken hearted
Let rescue begin
Come find your mercy
Oh sinner come kneel
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t heal
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t heal
I’ve actually been singing it all day today.
Thank you for how you share your heart, Abby.
Much love.
xoxo
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I love David Crowder and love that song! We bought the CD while on Christmas vacation. Always a joy to hear from you, Beth. 🙂
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Abby, you laid yourself bare here and I just know that these words will not return void. God is going to use them to touch the broken heart that needs His grace. So blessed by the testimony…so glad you are His. ❤️
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Abby thank you for sharing your heart. It was so touching… Yes the world says do and Jesus simply asks us to come to Him. Very powerful thought my friend!
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Simply beautiful, Abby. “Come” is always encouragement, always comfort. Am so thankful you answered the call. xo
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In a world that says “Do,” Jesus simply says come…I really like that. I enjoy reading your words. Thanks for posting and sharing this with us.
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