“You’re always my number one,” my hubby said.
I put my head against his chest and let his affirmation sink in, resting in his strong embrace.
I couldn’t remember the last time I’d been so tired. Adjusting to life with three kids and finding balance was a struggle. I was flailing in a sea of failed expectations in others, but also fighting to maintain healthy expectations in myself.
When I forgot to sign my son’s homework, I felt defeated. When I was unable to spend as much time with my boys, I felt guilt.
As we encounter difficulty navigating new seasons in life, the voices of doubt often creep in.
You can’t get this mom-of-three-kids thing down. Why did you ever think it was a good idea?
That book proposal will never get done. You may as well not even try.
And the scary part is, we often listen to that voice-the one who confirms our worst fears and dark thoughts we don’t talk about with others. The one who brings out the worst version of ourselves.
Instead of pursuing our dreams, we convince ourselves failure is inevitable. We shrink away from the edge of the next leap of faith before we even see the drop off.
So what do we do? How do we silence the voice of doubt when our eyelids are heavy and the road is weary?
If we want to drown the source of lies, we must look to the source of all truth- Jesus. He didn’t just speak truth. He lived it.
When I look at his life I often wonder, how did he keep discouragement and doubt at bay? When the Pharisees and naysayers questioned his every move, how did he stay strong? It’s quite simple, really.
Jesus knew who he was.
I came from the Father and have come into the world, and now I am leaving the world and going to the Father.
John 16:28 ESV
He not only knew who he was, but who he is, and is to come. One with the Father. His Son. The One he was “well pleased” with.
And when he looks at you and me, he’s pleased too. Not because we’re perfect or flawless, but because he sees his perfect Son.
You don’t have to compete for God’s attention. Like my husband said to me, you’re his number one.
When we face a mountain of doubt and discouragement, we can choose to listen his thoughts about us instead of the lies that invade our peace. Even when others around us are pointing out our flaws or being negative, we can immerse ourselves in the voice that speaks truth and love.
And when we abide in him, he calls us daughters. He gives us a crown and says, “Come to me, you who are weary.”
I don’t know about you, but those voices of lies are making me weary. Let’s come to the only One who can give us true rest today.
Let’s follow Jesus’ example and remember not only who we are, but Whose we are today.