I’m not sure when my negative self-talk started or how it became part of my inner monologue, but somehow those self-condemning thoughts worked their way into the recesses of my mind.
Most of us have them from time to time. Those conversations with the person in the mirror. Where we talk ourselves out of doing what God has called us to do. Where we talk ourselves out of doing the thing we love or taking a leap of faith.
For me, the conversation has been the same for as long as I can remember. The person in the mirror says, “You’re not good enough.” And the woman facing her meets the disapproval with deafening silence.
How do I respond? Maybe she’s right. I don’t have what it takes.
Sometimes the voice of our enemy becomes so familiar we mistake it as our own.
When I listen to the voice of my adversary, I look at a verse like this one and inwardly chuckle:
“Her children rise and call her blessed; her husband also, and praises her.” (Proverbs 31:28)
I think: My children rise and ask for their breakfast, but call me blessed? Hmmm.
But you see, I am blessed. And the more I bask in the truth of His Word and the presence of his Spirit, I realize that. I may tell myself I’m not good enough, and my enemy may repeat this lie to me until the day I die, but I don’t have to listen to it.
When our negative self-talk threatens to consume us, we must consume more of the Truth.
And the truth says I am more than a conqueror. (Romans 8:37) I am the righteousness of God through Christ. (2 Corinthians 5:21) I lack nothing, for God will provide all I need through His glorious riches. (Philippians 4:19)
My husband is a man of God who also happens to be a man of science. He tells me that every action has to have an equal and opposite reaction. The same is true for those oppressive, pessimistic talks we give ourselves which come in all shapes and sizes. For every lie, every negative thought, I must have an equal and opposite truth.
When I arm myself with the truth, I see that that woman in Proverbs 31 and I aren’t so different. We serve the same God and through his lens, we are both his children.
Children who are blessed.